Saturday, November 21, 2009


Well it is that time again, Thanksgiving and tonight is the annual Thanksgiving Dinner at the Smith House. This will be the first year and the first major holiday with out my grandmother. Not sure how tonight is going to go, I expect that it will be a mixture of happiness and sadness. Not sure who all is going to be there tonight and I have to say that part of me is looking forward to tonight and then part of me is not. Last year Aiden and I were both sick and we had to stay at home. How fitting was it that last year was my grandmother's last Thanksgiving and Christmas and my father who has not gone to a family gathering for that side in years and yes I do mean years, was at both! We'll have to wait and see it if goes tonight. 

Saturday, November 14, 2009

What a week!

Oh my what a week! Let's just say that there are things that happened this week that I wished had never happened. But that does not change the facts that it did happen and the best that I can do is play the cards that have been dealt to me and do it with a song in my heart and a smile on my face! Of course the week wasn't all bad! Riley is doing so good with the potty training, he doesn't come tell me when he has to go he just goes into the bathroom and does his business. He has only had 2 accidents in the last week and they were both yesterday and one I hardly count because we were in the car from 8:30ish to 11:30ish without stopping. Aiden had a tummy virus but that only lasted for 12 hours, I got really lucky in that! Poor little thing did not feel good at all while he was sick! At school I got a 98 on my Sociology test! Yeah for me! I thought that I got in the B range! As for the bad part of this week! I want it fit but don't see how to yet. Just gotta keep working on it till I figure it out! And to top it off I feel like I am going to get sick, I so hope that I don't! Well, just have to take and see and keep the faith!

Friday, November 6, 2009

Brother's EX

Okay now I know that it take 2 to make a marriage and it takes the same 2 to end a marriage. For some unknown reason my brother wants to try to get back together with his ex. I am trying my best to put all things a side for my brother's happiness. I think that we all can agree that what she did and how she went about things were hurtfully and wrong. God teaches forgiveness and I am trying to so just that! I have extended invitations which she never accepts.  We welcomed her into our family no questions asked, even though she was carrying another man's baby. We even accepted the baby no questions ask, came to think of him as our own. Love doesn't always see blood, it see what the heart wants it to see. Timmy, how I miss him. If they happen not to get back together he will never know how much we love him, even to this day! She said the she would never take Timmy away from us no matter what happened between her and Chris, well guess what! She did! And that hurts like hell, it has almost been like morning a death, except that we know that he is okay and happy. Will she break my brother's heart again?

Thursday, November 5, 2009


Ahhh it has been awhile. Since June? Wow. No much has changed, the pain has eased up, it is still there and the missing is still there. Today I was thinking about Thanksgiving, we always go to the Smith House, that was our Thanksgiving/Christmas gift from Nanny. It was her wish that after her death that we keep going. I was wondering how it was going to go, of course it will not be the same. Half of the family is not going to come, or so I think. But we must go one. 
Shane is still the same, crap, he is never going to change. He did pay 1 child support payment, only because he was about to go to jail. What is up with men not wanting to take care of their children. There are some out there who do and actually they are the majority. Why, then, does mine have to be the minority. 
The boys, Riley is potty training, until now he has not wanted to but I have refused to buy pull-ups for him unless they are night time. Aiden has turned 2 and the day that he turned to the terrible 2s hit. Got one coming out and one going into of the terrible 2s, but that is what I get for having them so close.